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I find my voice faltering in declarations of dyke-ness sometimes because I like/am stone/s. I’m like “Yea yea rah rah I like fucking women!” and then it’s like, I love to be the receptive (hell passive if you wanna say) subject in sex. So should it be “I liked getting fucked by women!”? And really that doesn’t have the same bite, the same hard hitting punch that the first declaration does. I have to find a way to make receptivity come across as active. Because I find that if you are not seeming to be assertive or active or whatever, it’s not dykey enough. It’s way too hetero. Which sets you up to be a fake-dyke. Hm…
I’ve really been thinking about femme presentation. I think gender presentation ties into this. I’m not to be trusted you know. I’m not identify-ably a dyke. In the above I stated that I may not be sexually identify-ably a dyke. So why is this an issue? Why must I “look and act like what I am”? I guess because otherwise, I’m not what I am. Then I’m not to be trusted you see. People need concrete “evidence”…the gay-dar must go off. The correct party line must be espoused.

So about being a stone femme pillow queen…
I need a dyke daddy to smack it up rub it down fuck me and make me scream mercy. yeah. I want a stud who can make me cum a thousand times and run her hands over my body later. I desire sex where we both get off after I’ve gushed so much I think I’ll pass out. I need her to be with me every moment, in the moment. I need to see her heavy lidded eyes above mine. I need to ride baby’s dick, her strap, buckwild, cowgirl-from-texas, style. ’cause I am from texas. I’d love to suck her nipples and caress her stomach. I’d love to give her hickeys and lapdances. I need a dominant daddy, spanks me, and makes me obey her right…oooo the games I gotta play with her, in private.

Does that come across as dyke-y enough? Who cares right? That was really more of a personals ad seeking sex, if I were to write one seeking sex I guess. Not flowery erotica, just straight up what I’m looking for; but I’m seeking more than that ’cause relationships are more than the bedroom…and that’s where other types of dyke-ness comes in. The right to build a home with her, to have children with her. Wanting to live many many days with her.

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